"so I try to hold on while you try to let go"

All the things I enjoyed at home have now (un)ceremoniously changed.. Things on my mind:*Rugby (first match Saturday..in Framingham...wish me luck? I spite all ye who said I wouldn't/couldn't do it. Rugby's fun. Hope I don't break anything)*Shakespeare Society (I find out tomorrow if I got in or not..audition was fun and went well, not so sure about the application essays..in part because I didn't exactly write them legibly. Oh well. No HUGE loss if I don't get it...just one less place to hang out that isn't my room.)* Tape (callbacks are Saturday at 10 before the rugby match. I'm excited... 30 people auditioned, 8 were called for callbacks....and on top of that, I'm being called back for a guy's part. That is hip to the nth degree.)* Blue out Loud (I'm starting a slam club/ helping revive the lit club...organization night was last night and I thought it went really well, got to talk about slam, hang out with people)I guess it looks as if I'm busy but the truth of the matter is it feels like there's this void.. I've met people and made friends and stuff, sure.. but it just keeps doing that tightrope thing to me--- one foot I'm balanced, the next foot I'm falling towards the net. Talk to me one hour and things are fab, the next stuff sucks. Maybe that's what adjustment period means. I enjoy my classes, I enjoy the way my room looks, I enjoy the people I've talked to..It would be nice to have a significant other. Nice aka not BAD. Not NECESSARY but not BAD. I guess I just needed that 2 month period to reset my hormones. Not so much in that way is happening yet, but I've been reminded many times in the past two days that we've only been here for 3 weeks. 3 weeks.