"I've never been in combat"

Tower Court 2003 was awesome. I think being with all girls will be more than fine. In Sean's words "I don't think being at a single sex school is the worst thing that could happen to you" (insert sly smile). Well, funny thing is that I've probably talked to more guys here than I would have if I'd been at a co-ed school. There are a few reasons for this:* Went to find Tori in Claflin and instead found a guy distributing calendars who needed an escort (guys ae only allowed horizontally w/o escorts in our dorms). So I wasn't doing anything and I walked him around. Fun stuff. 16 year old from Utica, NY. *Mixer on Friday at MIT. Horrible experience, felt ugly and unloved. Oh yeah, there were boys there, too. Blech*Saturday my phone accidentally called this guy who I met in July through my uncle and aunt. Subsequently, we're hanging out on Saturday. Yay.*Hung out with the Seanster on Sunday, made a cameo at Emerson (speaking role, too) visited Jman and got to know some of the people on his floor-- and Ellyn was there! It's a co-ed floor. And no drugs allowed on the floor. HIP. *Monday night: Tower Court. Combat boots are not passe yet! Hurray... met some nice MIT frat boys. Must actively revise opinion on frat boys. Or must actively revise opinion on MIT. Maybe a bit of both. Good time. And it was nice to feel free of paranoia for once. Danced with girls, danced with boys, remained sober throughout and still woke up for my 8:30 philosophy class. Jilisham totally messed with my mind with her Story of B-ness, right? The Prof gives us the Man in the Cave example, and I'm more concerned with the CAVE. Who gives about the man? The world is over-populated anyway. So then I tell my mom and she asks me if I'm drunk. Must. start. prioritizing. humans. again.DAMN.Well, I'm enjoying myself immensely. Have to focus a little more on the schoolwork and a little less on weekend plans, but cut me a bit of slack, it is the first week of school after all. Past the boycrazyness, I've been having a lot of fun.. just tired.. need to fix that. Enjoyment of Wellesley = A.

"don't be too nice"

Ay, there's the rub...aka the downside of wanting to get along. Then again, I suppose someone's going to be skeptical of you independent of how much or little you try. Go figure.I've realized that if I am really attracted to someone, I do't have any interest in talking to them. 1. I like the whole Dorian Gray pedestal idea..keeping the dream, not messing with it2. I resent someone else having the power to affect my thoughts3. I resent the attractiveness of the other personWhy should liking someone be such a negative?So in the midst of all this, I'm trying to re-figure out my schedule. Would I really like to take a night course on Dostoevsky? Could I deal with not taking an English class for a semester?The bigget question is whether I'll be able to stay awake in class. Who's holding their breath on that one? Tomorrow we go Boston-ing and I think Saturday I'm helping arrange an excursion to Urban Outfitters. Walked along rt 135 from Dower to Quad wondering what I WANTED to do that I wasn't doing in that moment. Felt alone, though alone's what I thought I wanted since yesterday. Alone's not it. Together? We're supposed to give it 6 months. Ok. I like school, but it's a new place. And this whole idea of slowing down and just taking other classes... doesn't seem possible to me. I never look at the little picture and the roses are just as well sniffed or not.